It always seems that just when I'm excited about our upcoming trip and all the relaxation that's in store for me, another bump lands in our road. As if to make me feel guilty for going on vacation. As if to say "hey, you shouldn't be spending money." I already know this is the last big vacation we'll have in a very long while, so I hardly think it's fair I should be reminded so repeatedly and so expensively that we are not well off and need to save every penny.
So, on top of Neil's two trips to the ER and my car breaking down earlier in the month ... Neil's saab decides to call it quits on Christmas Eve. The sad part is that it may be beyond repair. The car itself isn't worth more than $1500 in running condition and its current diagnosis is engine failure. A new engine costs more to repair than the car is worth. So, we may end up with a new(er) car and a payment that I am nowhere near ready to wrap my mind around.
But, things have always worked out for us in the past, so I know this hurdle will be no different. Because it's all about the attitude. It's just going to take some thinking, and some financial reorganizing, some deal hunting, and some know how. (did I just write "know how?") And even if the idea of getting second jobs is no longer idle chit chat for us, we'll do what we have to to make it work, like Tim Gunn tells us to.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Treading water in the meantime
God, please give me the patience I am so desperately needing as I feel myself slipping into that all too familiar rut; that rut that makes me want to scream how unfair and unbalanced life can seem sometimes. I know it's a bit dramatic, but I've never been good at waiting. Especially waiting around for whatever I'm supposed to do and be in my life. Please help me to remember I am on your time line, and not my own. Help me take comfort in the path chosen for me and the turns it will take in my future. I've never been good at this, but I have no choice but to wait. Help me to do it gracefully.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Winterapathy
What is with my apathy as of late? Oh ... yeah ... Winter. Oh why must you be so rainy and cold? I'd actually much prefer you be bitter cold and snowy than your typical damp, achy and soaking. Feels like I'm always just getting out an outdoor shower, but with no towel to dry off. Weird, but it does. Some people call the winter depression seasonal affective disorder. But I'm not depressed ... just lazy. My word for it is "Winterapathy." (trade marked, Jaime England Inc.)
But other than the uncomfortable weather and ugly, bare trees ... the feelings are right this time of year. Like for instance ... normally I would be freaking out that Neil's two ER trips this month cost us $400 and my car's recent trip to the shop is going to cost us another $400 (all a month short of our trip to Hawaii). Normally ... I would be a tightly wound ball of stress regarding this unfortunate setback. But Christmas seems to make everything better. I just sit on the couch, bask in the glow of the tree lights while drinking my eggnog, and completely drown out the world. I'm going to miss this escape when it's over.
One thing I can say though ... it's so great, for my weak will power's sake, that eggnog is only sold seasonally.
But other than the uncomfortable weather and ugly, bare trees ... the feelings are right this time of year. Like for instance ... normally I would be freaking out that Neil's two ER trips this month cost us $400 and my car's recent trip to the shop is going to cost us another $400 (all a month short of our trip to Hawaii). Normally ... I would be a tightly wound ball of stress regarding this unfortunate setback. But Christmas seems to make everything better. I just sit on the couch, bask in the glow of the tree lights while drinking my eggnog, and completely drown out the world. I'm going to miss this escape when it's over.
One thing I can say though ... it's so great, for my weak will power's sake, that eggnog is only sold seasonally.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
'Tis the season
Just realized I've been kinda lame at updating this lately. 'Tis the season to get distracted I guess.
Christmas is just around the next corner, so soon after closing the door on 2009's Thanksgiving. It was another interesting turkey day this year, spent up in the cabin near Mt. Shasta. We spend this holiday with Neil's family and make a point of going up the mountain to barbarically chop down a living tree for our holiday amusement. I love it. The tree part, not so much the being in a small cabin with a lot of people for several days part. But that has its moments too. It's definitely not a time without its memories; both good and not so good. But either way, we're very thankful for the beautiful tree and the Christmas merriment that it always brings to our humble dwelling. My, aren't I fancy?
Anyway, need to get off the computer for now. I forgot my glasses and a migraine is the last thing on the menu for today. Actually, maybe I'll leave it off the menu all together.
Christmas is just around the next corner, so soon after closing the door on 2009's Thanksgiving. It was another interesting turkey day this year, spent up in the cabin near Mt. Shasta. We spend this holiday with Neil's family and make a point of going up the mountain to barbarically chop down a living tree for our holiday amusement. I love it. The tree part, not so much the being in a small cabin with a lot of people for several days part. But that has its moments too. It's definitely not a time without its memories; both good and not so good. But either way, we're very thankful for the beautiful tree and the Christmas merriment that it always brings to our humble dwelling. My, aren't I fancy?
Anyway, need to get off the computer for now. I forgot my glasses and a migraine is the last thing on the menu for today. Actually, maybe I'll leave it off the menu all together.
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